Ah! Jag har precis varit på konsert i Matteuskyrkan vid Odenplan. Så himla avkopplande och skön syssla på en söndag. Det var lite blandad musik, allt från Vivaldi, schubert, Rachmanninov och en kompositör jag har en hatkärlek till – Wienawskij. När jag spelade, många år sen nu, hade jag just Wienawskij som jag spelade på audition. Så, mycket fin musik som jag idag kan njuta av men det kommer många minnen som har mycket prestationsångest inblandat.
Efter konserten samlades vi alla upp (då det är mina vänner) för ”musikgodis”. Haha!
Nu ska jag bara njuta av denna söndagskväll med att bara ta det lugnt hemma själv!
I think a lot about how my well-being and self-esteem can be improved, and I realize that many of the challenges for me are connected to my performance requirement that I have had since I was a child.
I have always hated to fail and remember what it was like as a child before I would learn anything. Not knowing everything before I learned it was a failure. I must be able to find a direction in life that is only mine and find a path where I am enough for myself
The feeling of being in the moment, that`s the key - I believe. Some need a lot, others a little. I need to have a clear inner direction that leads me steadily and safely forward. A constant flow of something that is mine where no one judges or thinks, where I can`t be reached or adjust to score points 💕✨⭐️ ...
What a boost 💕 I’m so tired but so so happy I completed it and even though I had the attitude of not even finishing 🙈 I will definitely do it again and would be happy to do it with you guys! ⭐️ ...
I have surprised myself. I`ve beaten an eating disorder, sepsis, and a kidney infection (this summer) that was no help at all - and today I have finished my first race. Half marathon under 2 hours. Oh! And btw, not to forget, I also have type 1 diabetes 💕 ...
