Hej på er! Sitter på flygplatsen här i San Diego och väntar på att tiden ska gå och att jag kan börja min resa hem igen. Jag lämnar underbara California med nya vänskaper, mer erfarenhet, kunskap och kärlek.
Jag känner mig tom och jag vet att jag brukar känna mig så här efter några intensiva dagar. Det är en jobbig känsla men idag är en bättre dag än gårdagen. Känslan av tomhet har jag svårt för men det blir bättre!
Jag ska sammanfatta det som jag har varit med om men jag behöver lite tid innan allt landar.
Nu väntar en 11 timmar flight till Heathrow och sedan några timmar därifrån till Arlanda. Jag landar på svensk mark onsdag kväll och sen väntar två intensiva dagar med jobb (min jobb-mejl har svämmar över).
I think a lot about how my well-being and self-esteem can be improved, and I realize that many of the challenges for me are connected to my performance requirement that I have had since I was a child.
I have always hated to fail and remember what it was like as a child before I would learn anything. Not knowing everything before I learned it was a failure. I must be able to find a direction in life that is only mine and find a path where I am enough for myself
The feeling of being in the moment, that`s the key - I believe. Some need a lot, others a little. I need to have a clear inner direction that leads me steadily and safely forward. A constant flow of something that is mine where no one judges or thinks, where I can`t be reached or adjust to score points 💕✨⭐️ ...
What a boost 💕 I’m so tired but so so happy I completed it and even though I had the attitude of not even finishing 🙈 I will definitely do it again and would be happy to do it with you guys! ⭐️ ...
I have surprised myself. I`ve beaten an eating disorder, sepsis, and a kidney infection (this summer) that was no help at all - and today I have finished my first race. Half marathon under 2 hours. Oh! And btw, not to forget, I also have type 1 diabetes 💕 ...
